Sunday, November 14, 2010 10:23 PM
Saturday, October 16, 2010 2:03 PM
A free saturday finally! And by that, i mean an entire day free without any plans except to stay at home and do random stuff plus study. Yes study. Especially my organic chem (i'm sorry Prof Lu, I don't get you!)
Anyways, Im excited for Vocaldente!!! I've been googling them here & there recently since I found out they're coming to UCC on the 27th Oct & it's free admission!! They're performing at the Arts House on the 28th for a price of $35 tho? That's for the International A Cappella Festival in Singapore. Okay, as I was saying. THEY'RE AWESOME. They perform without mics, going back to the beginnings of a cappella music. :D I wanna hear them perform Rosanna, Hide & Seek (awesome song by Imogen Heap, which I just found out of. sorry for my noob-ness. heh), some boyband medley plus other nice songs! AHH..
However, the thing is, there's a RAYs Leaders' structure comm meeting scheduled on the 27th. Knowing that vocaldente and this falls on the same date is a hindering block for me. I don't want my decision not to be part of this comm to be based on a selfish desire to want to go for this concert. Still in the midst of praying and I need to get an answer by Monday. If i'm not called to go for that meeting, then I want the peace when I'm at the concert. If not, it'll just be bothering me throughout the concert.
Alrightay, school's less busy this week since I've got no chem lab report to submit this week. Seriously, I hate chem lab reports more than writing my Yakuza dossier (which I submitted yest!) even though citations for arts essays are super tedious as well. (!!! I FORGOT TO CANCEL AN ONLINE LIBRARY MEMBERSHIP! I ONLY HAVE 1 DAY FREE TRIAL!!!! DOING IT NOW. D:)
Whatever it is, praise the Lord.
Turning 19 on the 19th
Friday, September 24, 2010 11:00 AM
How great is our God, sing with me how great is our God, & all will see how great, how great, is our God.
That's the song that's currently playing in the background as I'm typing this post. Indeed, how great is my God. I've lived 19 years on planet earth. Congratulations Sarah for surviving 12 years of Singapore's education system and everything the Singaporean (or world) culture has wham-bammed into your face. And that's not to my credit alone; God is the one who has always been bigger than everything else, who has always been so great, so great, that words alone are insufficient to express.
19 years old is such a neither here no there age. But I suppose it's the best age to be in? The final year of being a 'teen', literally. haha. It's the age where I just finished the stressful A'levels, have an 8 month break, (never in my life will i have such a long break again unless I idle 8months away before starting work next time? haha!), transit into a new phase of life - uni. And of course, it's the age in between the that of being a teen and adult. Well, this just brings to thought of how new things would be coming along the way. I'd meet new people in uni, meet friends from the past whom i've not contacted in a long while, encounter more different experiences both academically and also perhaps in my life generally. Fear would definitely be tagging along in these new experiences I would have for how may I know what to expect?
"Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God - this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing and perfect will."
In this coming of age, I stand by this commitment to be a living sacrifice to God. How so? Not conform to what the world says, in the sense that I must continuously learn not to let the world define me or to become any counterfeit God in my life, in ALL areas of my life. Renewing my mind, to enrich myself with the Word of God, keeping up with devotion as an act of worship instead of as a dead routine. I may not know what to expect of the greater things that has yet to come, or the worse things that has yet to come, but through standing by this commitment & believing firmly that I AM ALIVE IN CHRIST, I will see God's will being played out.
I may not have many(or any) dramatic, drastic experiences that were part of God's way to teach me lessons but I believe that in this journey I have with Him, all the little experiences are what He wants me to take notice of that would ultimately lead to His big picture. This means, I ought to open my eyes and ears and heart to constantly reflect in order to not miss out any single teaching point He has for me!
Thank you to all who celebrated this special day with me & for me, whether by being there presently, or just even that simple text message or facebook message of your birthday wish. God bless you, sweet friends of mine. :D
Anw, just to add on to this post, may be a lil irrelevant to the title but whatever. haha
I am done with mid terms! & hence I can post this up finally...
It was such a tight schedule last week despite being recess week. I know procastination did play a wee lil part & im guilty of that. I had to study 15 chapters of chem, consisting of entire JC1 content plus extra stuff, a film analysis for my GEK mod, and my chem lab report by yesterday, 27th Sept. As much as I tried to do them in the week (rightfully only began on wed since I went for Acts Camp on mon & tues), all those writing were really tedious & time-consuming. Hence, i only properly studied for my CA on Friday onwards? Sat was then taken up by combined worship training + worship prac + no-other-date-&-therefore-we-have-to-have-it birthday meetup with my pri sch buddies. Half of Sunday gone from church + RAYs Leaders' Meeting. & I still had half of CHEM to study for!
However, I guess all that just kinda built up that greater dependence on God. Surely I can't expect to do well based on myself but if I can get a satisfying grade, then it'll have to be God. I didnt even practice much, just look through tutorials & even so, the qns that came out in the paper yest weren't too similar except for a few. However, thank God that the MCQ was relatively easier compared to A'level chem mcq! haha.. & well, at least I more or less attempted everything except for 1 part of the structured & 1 mcq qn. And thank God for the extra 5 mins from the prof! :D And well, I came out of the exam hall, just relieved & not worried. People were complaining but I'll continue to give thanks to the Lord. Whatever the outcome, God is good.
In this new age, I seek to be NEW, not just BETTER.
Thursday, September 09, 2010 8:13 PM
"Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us." Romans 5:3-5
I thought this verse stood out pretty much as I read my bible (electronic one heh. the ipod bible) on the bus ride to school this morning. Perhaps its familiar so it jumped at me. Perhaps it's my whole frustration, worry and mulling over the crazy chem lab report that I had to complete desperately by today before I leave my hse at 9am to go to school, which as a result caused me to have only 4 hrs of sleep last night, that made these few verses so precious. I believe it's a mixture of both reasons?
Sometimes, familiar verses get by us so much more easily as we take them for granted, since we know them more closely at our fingertips. It then takes something for these verses to trigger and effect in us. At times like that, the verses would speak to us even louder. That's for me, for sure. These verses sure did that to me today when I read them.
Paul was truly an amazing person. Already I can feel the stress of a uni student building up, especially with the last week of madness and this week where i had to rush out that chem report rather last minute because i had other things that had to be completed prior to this deadline for the chem report. I think im 'suffering' but when I think about Paul's own sufferings as a Christian of his time, my 'suffering' is really nothing big. If he can rejoice in them, so can I. These few years in uni shall definitely serve to produce perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And this hope will be in God and not in anything else. His love for me is enough, definitely.
I am rather looking forward to the series on Romans, IWant2BeNew! Egg-citing! haha
On another note, I'm in Resonance! :D And I'm not a sop, neither am I an alto. I'm finally where I'm meant to be - Mezzo! :D heh. My range has always kinda be the mezzo range so yea. Well, we had our welcome tea last week and this tues was the official 1st meeting we had. Spent the night learning the 2nd half of the 2 songs we learnt during round 2 of auditions, as well as an Into to A capella session where we basically listened to how A capella music has evolved! Interesting! Got to know a few cool groups other than the ones I already know. :D Whee~ I'm excited bout the subsequent ones where we'll be learning bout blending, mic & PA, stage etc.. Coolios~ haha Thank God for this opportunity!!
A new phase is starting
Friday, August 06, 2010 11:47 AM
I haven't been blogging for the whole past 2 months or so I think. There doesn't seem to be very much a drive to blog mainly because I'm lazy to log out of my gmail and change to the other account for this blog. HAHA. okay, apart from that, I've got just too many things to say and as they accumulate, I have no idea where to start.
I'm in the last few days of my long holiday right now. A few months ago, everything seemed so long and dreary, but within this past week, time just seems to have sped up twice as fast. There's just so many things to complete in these few weeks, from school registrations, applications for this and that, and CORS Bidding. The last item was such a stressful thing alright. Thank God for the seniors who helped us and advised us.
University life is going to be so different and so much more independant I have no idea how much of it I can handle. Just saw a friend's blog where she says how in Uni, even unfriendly people become friendly all of a sudden. I can't help but look at it from Darwin's point of view; survival of the fittest. It's like we're just thrown into a whole new gene pool and everyone's doing their best to fit into the environment so that by "natural selection", we remain strong in this new surroundings. That would mean, being able to find a group of friends and survive through the 3 or 4 years in University life. Those that are "selected against" are thus left to fend for themselves and get eaten up by the stressworms and all. To guard against that, people just resort to conforming to the standards of the world. It's really disheartening to see sometimes.
However, I'm really glad to know that even if i'm ever "selected against", I am definitely not alone. Because I have a BIG BIG GOD who's always there for me. It's pretty awesome that this month is the Proverbs Devotional month. Those words that point me to needing the wisdom of God is just so apt as I start school. It's all those reminders from the word and also from ppl in church and crusade that will definitely always point me to God when I am stumbled or when my faith is put to test. It's gonna be tough but my stand for these few years in Uni is really: I can be in the world but NOT OF THE WORLD.
Just as Jesus hung out among sinners but didnt sin, likewise, I can surely be among both christian or non-christian friends. As long as I stay true to the values that are biblical and not against my conscience. I'll have to really really guard my heart well.
"Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life." Proverbs 4:23
Saturday, May 22, 2010 11:12 PM
I've decided. NUS Faculy of Science is what I've chosen, after much deliberation.
It was really an act of obedience to stop being so double-minded and make my choice. I thank God for using my mum to convince me to pick NUS. Of course, He later used sunday's sermon on Obedience to urge me that whatever other hesitations that I still have got to be surrendered. Then during closed cell (we finished RUTH finally btw!), the whole essence of the story of Ruth was also about obedience and submission. There and then, I thought I really have to stop hesitating about anything, stop even waiting for USP. There're so much more to uni than USP right??
However, even as I've accepted the offer from NUS on Monday, I wasn't too excited and I got worried. Is it the tension? Did I make a wrong decision? Did I hear wrongly from God? Just today, as I was doing the worship team's church camp prep devotional, it just spoke to me about following the ways of God, His statutes, longing for His precepts and choosing to live a life 'thirsty for His righteousness', which was what we went through in cell on Friday night. Just another thing before I go on is that on Friday I got a reply from the USP ppl to say my application was not successful.
Well okay anyway, I was just thinking of how my thoughts were not righteous, not Christ-like. I had thirst for the recognition of being under the USP. I had hungered basically for something of the world; it was all merely to fulfil my pride, make me stand tall in the fact that I've successfully got into USP. As if to make up for not getting straight A's or something. Previously, I was basing my decision to choose NUS with the pre-requisite that I get into USP. Even though I say I'm willing to let God determine my path, it's like I was still secretly trying to box Him unknowingly.
However, hearing the news on friday that I didn't get in wasn't so bad because I know I've triumphed over this and went ahead to accept NUS way before I knew my results of USP. If I had chosen NTU, I probably wouldn't have realised the un-righteous, un-Christlike thoughts I had. I probably would have just thought it was a good decision since anyway, I didnt get into USP wad. And I had other noble reasons (excuses!) to go NTU. You get what I mean?? But having chosen NUS despite of this turnout, I've gained more and seen more of how prideful I can get, how eager to show off and please Man.
So now, I'm glad and at peace to know that NUS is a right decision made. I know I've honoured God in this sense. So heh heh yep. YAY!
What am I feeling? But then again, feelings are deceptive. I need more clarity.
What am I living for?
Tuesday, May 11, 2010 5:46 PM
Received an email that jeanette forwarded to some of us about this interview with Rick Warren.
You will enjoy the new insights that Rick Warren has, with his wife now having cancer and him having 'wealth' from the book sales. This is an absolutely incredible short interview with Rick Warren, 'Purpose Driven Life ' author and pastor of Saddleback Church in California .
In the interview by Paul Bradshaw with Rick Warren, Rick said: People ask me, What is the purpose of life?
And I respond: In a nutshell, life is preparation for eternity. We were not made to last forever, and God wants us to be with Him in Heaven.
One day my heart is going to stop, and that will be the end of my body-- but not the end of me.
I may live 60 to 100 years on earth, but I am going to spend trillions of years in eternity. This is the warm-up act - the dress rehearsal. God wants us to practice on earth what we will do forever in eternity..
We were made by God and for God, and until you figure that out, life isn't going to make sense.
Life is a series of problems: Either you are in one now, you're just coming out of one, or you're getting ready to go into another one.
The reason for this is that God is more interested in your character than your comfort; God is more interested in making your life holy than He is in making your life happy.
We can be reasonably happy here on earth, but that's not the goal of life. The goal is to grow in character, in Christ likeness.
This past year has been the greatest year of my life but also the toughest, with my wife, Kay, getting cancer.
I used to think that life was hills and valleys - you go through a dark time, then you go to the mountaintop, back and forth. I don't believe that anymore.
Rather than life being hills and valleys, I believe that it's kind of like two rails on a railroad track, and at all times you have something good and something bad in your life..
No matter how good things are in your life, there is always something bad that needs to be worked on.
And no matter how bad things are in your life, there is always something good you can thank God for.
You can focus on your purposes, or you can focus on your problems:
If you focus on your problems, you're going into self-centeredness, which is my problem, my issues, my pain.' But one of the easiest ways to get rid of pain is to get your focus off yourself and onto God and others.
We discovered quickly that in spite of the prayers of hundreds of thousands of people, God was not going to heal Kay or make it easy for her- It has been very difficult for her, and yet God has strengthened her character, given her a ministry of helping other people, given her a testimony, drawn her closer to Him and to people.
You have to learn to deal with both the good and the bad of life.
Actually, sometimes learning to deal with the good is harder. For instance, this past year, all of a sudden, when the book sold 15 million copies, it made me instantly very wealthy.
It also brought a lot of notoriety that I had never had to deal with before. I don't think God gives you money or notoriety for your own ego or for you to live a life of ease. So I began to ask God what He wanted me to do with this money, notoriety and influence. He gave me two different passages that helped me decide what to do, II Corinthians 9 and Psalm 72.
First, in spite of all the money coming in, we would not change our lifestyle one bit.. We made no major purchases.
Second, about midway through last year, I stopped taking a salary from the church.
Third, we set up foundations to fund an initiative we call The Peace Plan to plant churches, equip leaders, assist the poor, care for the sick, and educate the next generation.
Fourth, I added up all that the church had paid me in the 24 years since I started the church, and I gave it all back. It was liberating to be able to serve God for free.
We need to ask ourselves: Am I going to live for possessions? Popularity? Am I going to be driven by pressures? Guilt? Bitterness? Materialism? Or am I going to be driven by God's purposes (for my life)?
When I get up in the morning, I sit on the side of my bed and say, God, if I don't get anything else done today, I want to know You more and love You better. God didn't put me on earth just to fulfill a to-do list. He's more interested in what I am than what I do.
That's why we're called human beings, not human doings.
Happy moments, PRAISE GOD.
Difficult moments, SEEK GOD.
Quiet moments, WORSHIP GOD.
Painful moments, TRUST GOD.
Every moment, THANK GOD..
Amen to all that he mentioned. Indeed, are we choosing to honour God with this life that He's given us to have or are we gonna honour the ideas that the world is infiltrating into our systems?
As I was in Ps Thom's car with Jessica and T Franks, on the ride back from JB to Singapore, Jessica posed a question I thought it was worth pondering about. Do we believe in the act of 'making mistakes' or are those 'mistakes' simply a result of a wrong choice that we make? So, is life simply about choices?
Yes and no, i guess. It is a known fact that we are faced with choices and decisions to make everyday, big or small. Thus, on one hand, you can say life is about choices. On the other hand, as a Christian, we know that life is not just about choices. It's more than that. The focus is not on the choices but, whether ultimately, the choice we make causes us to honour God, or to sin and make a mistake. That's the more important issue we need to look at.
Our lives should be about God; we are called to shout about God and what He's done for us on the cross. We are created after all, to give Him all glory in all that we do, in all the crossroads that we're in. Just as Rick Warren says, we got to put the focus off ourselves and onto God. Simple because He deserves it all.