Because you loved me.
Thursday, October 15, 2009 7:41 PM
Today was a rather emotionally intense day, I would say. It was Baccalaureate Service for the class of 2009. It practically marked the end for the 2 years of JC life in ACJC especially. So many 'last's took place(some of them yesterday)...
the last time singing for morning ensemble - for real,
the last time going for assembly and trying to be punctual for it,
the last time we get dismissed from the hall to our first class venues,
the last time going for tutorials -whether we enjoyed them or not,
the last time attending lectures marked out on timetables,
the last time sitting with choir in the morning during assembly,
the last time walking from buona vista mrt to school in the morn and walking that road back after a day's lessons with great company,
the last time we had a sit-down-together time with ms Azlina in our base class venue...The service itself was meaningful and got me high instead of feeling down with all the song-singing by the student leaders. Following that, there was all the hustle and bustle of students strutting around school, giving gifts or taking photos for memory's keepsake... My class met at our base class for the very last time and waited for Ms Azlina to come meet us there. She finally came and got these bags filled with her love for the 24 of us. We then slotted in the pre-written notes for each special individual of 2SC6'09. I gave out my giant pocky sticks & heart chocs too. =)
As we later stood up, one by one, to share our thoughts of being in the class the 2 years, there were so many things that really touched my heart. Indeed, 2SC6 is a one special class that may superficially has split into a few cliques here and there. However, I'm sure deep down in everyone, we love each other much and believe in the strength and unity of this class. Deep down inside us, we believe our class is ONE still and that's more important than anyone else? Anyway, after saying my own share, as I heard so many of them speak, this song just popped up in my head. Strangely, it was just 2 days ago I heard it and yesterday, thought of it again. Then today, as it came up, I thought yes, that's the sentiments I have for the class.
Because You Loved Me (Cover by SNSD Taeyeon, SeoHyun) For all those times you stood by me For all the truth that you made me see For all the joy you brought to my life For all the wrong that you made right For every dream you made come true For all the love I found in you I'll be forever thankful baby You're the one who held me up Never let me fall You're the one who saw me through through it all You were my strength when I was weak You were my voice when I couldn't speak You were my eyes when I couldn't see You saw the best there was in me Lifted me up when I couldn't reach You gave me faith 'coz you believed I'm everything I am Because you loved me You gave me wings and made me fly You touched my hand I could touch the sky I lost my faith, you gave it back to me You said no star was out of reach You stood by me and I stood tall I had your love I had it all I'm grateful for each day you gave me Maybe I don't know that much But I know this much is true I was blessed because I was loved by you You were my strength when I was weak You were my voice when I couldn't speak You were my eyes when I couldn't see You saw the best there was in me Lifted me up when I couldn't reach You gave me faith 'coz you believed I'm everything I am Because you loved me You were always there for me The tender wind that carried me A light in the dark shining your love into my life You've been my inspiration Through the lies you were the truth My world is a better place because of you You were my strength when I was weak You were my voice when I couldn't speak You were my eyes when I couldn't see You saw the best there was in me Lifted me up when I couldn't reach You gave me faith 'coz you believed I'm everything I am Because you loved me I'm everything I am Because you loved meThank you SC6, thank you choir as well for teaching me to always seek to bless & not impress. Thank you for loving me. =D
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On a side note, class outing today was highly successful! Whee~ looks like we're bonded by the murderer game too. hee.
The beginning of a new season
Monday, September 21, 2009 9:53 PM
I've turned eighteen years old. Wow. I've lived my life for eighteen years; and out of these eighteen years, perhaps only 4 years of my life where I truly found a close relationship with God although I've attended sunday schools and church all the eighteen years.
Well, I remember on Friday, 18th sept, when my classmates gave me the 3rd installment of the surprise, Jocelyn asked me,"Do you feel older?" At that point, I just thought: Being 17 or 18 doesn't feel much different. I'm still in JC, attending school, wearing a uniform, still in my 'teens'... except for the fact I get to watch M18 movies legally ( not that I ever sneaked into a cinema for an M18 movie before.. haha). It just felt like a very routine thing to celebrate birthdays year after year, without thinking too much about it.
Never would I have thought this perception could make a 180degrees turn overnight, and further develop over these few days.
On friday, I deeply felt the love of my friends and the people around me. My classmates showered me with strawberry surprises and absolutely unthinkable presents; my sec4 classmates also celebrated it for me this yr even though we're not like in the same class; then at night after town hall meeting in church, RAYs sprung a surprise for me as well by presenting me with strawberry shortcake and josh's elegant butterfly card. That surprise was really quite well done seeing that I didn't suspect a single thing and I was even so gullible to be 'lied to' by shalyn earlier that evening. THANK YOU ALL for the surprises.

On saturday, my actual day, I received so many well-wishes from friends, people I know...wow. I was overwhelmed by the fact that some people, despite not being that close to anymore or not in close contact, still bothered to drop a birthday greeting on facebook or msg me! Sometimes, these make me feel super bad if I didn't rmb their birthday before...But looking on the positive side, God seems to be reminding me of how I must not lose that contact with them but keep it and use it for His glory. That day, I also decided to do something special for my family. I whipped up a pasta dish for them. It was a whole lot of linguine to cook but I overestimated/understimated so there were leftover cooked linguine not used. I just thought it would be nice to do something different. After all, I'm eighteen and it's a supposed independent age so showing some cooking skills would be an indication of the age. haha..Thank God everything went well during the cooking except for a few clumsy acts on my part like spilling a some cream over.. oops. haha..I really thank my family for willing to spend so much for me-the food, my contact lenses...it's alot of money! I will surely repay them when I earn my own money, doublefold, or best still, triplefold. =D

On Sunday evening, I met up with my bunch of besties, Faith, Yeun & Jody for dinner at JP. We decided on Thai Express & promptly headed there without wasting any time. There, we had a great time just talking nonsense over the delicious food. =) It was a time of catching up too. Halfway, I was surprised by a cake from them! Apparently, Jody already pre-ordered the cake and sneaked up after our meal to get the cake from the JP Bakerzin! It was strawberry shortcake =DD I've always wanted to try theirs after Jody told me about it last year. Anyway, I was really touched as again, it was an act of love from these 3 dear friends of mine. We walked around abit before going to Ji De Chi for some desserts! After which, we parted ways and went home.

One thing from last night's dinner was while I was opening the presents. Jody actually got me a Christian devotional. A simple Daily Bread with like verses for every day & lines to write down thoughts. It may be a simple devotional book but something else stood out from it which touched me deeply. Jody described the gift as being 'so me' that's why she bought it. This just assured me that she actually could see Christ in me and so, she knew I am really devoted to God and that I love God alot alot alot. That thought just passed through as I saw her present. That's just enough for me to know. And it's like on Friday, I shared with Gnet that for my open doors journey, I'm still praying for Jody. It's as if God is trying to let me see some work being done slowly.

Today, I had a good time talking to God about all these wonderful experiences I had that shows me indeed His goodness in my life. It spurs me to work hard for A levels seeing that my prelim results were just so-so and not very good. Why? Because, I really want to for my sake, feel deserving of His mercy and goodness.
Thank you God for your mercy and goodness that shall follow me for all of my days. I will choose to let you lead.
taking a BIG BREAK before the MAD RUSH.
Wednesday, September 09, 2009 11:12 PM
It's the September school holidays once again!! My favourite month of the year is September. Guess why. I'm sure it's not hard to guess the reason so.
Anyway, prelims went pretty okay for me I suppose. Not say that the papers are easy or otherwise, but rather, I just felt at peace after every single paper, be them 1,2 or 3, geog, gp or chem. haha... I told myself, & I told God, that I'm just going to study whatever I can, prepare whatever I can in the time that I was given(actually, it's perhaps more of the time I started to give myself). & I'm not going to hold too high an expectation for my results to come. Of course, I would really wish for at least Cs for the subjects. The reason for the not-so-high expectations I made for myself is that I know that I just want to do my best for this exam and not get all fretful or overly morose over bad results. It's my own gauge as to how far I need to progress before the big thing really arrive at my doorstep. It's my marker genes so I can identify the sequence in which I should concentrate on. (heh, can't help but add in a bit of C.S.I. knowledge here!) So there, now, i'm happily enjoying my good break before the mad rush comes out again.
Oh yea, last monday, I went back to RV with a couple of my cosinettes to visit the teachers! Ms Dora Lee has left sadly and Ms Tan's also gonna leave at the end of this year to work in MOE. quite sad but cool huh? haha.. she says she'll invite us over someday before our male species of the class enter army! YAY! Took photos with her, mr chen, mr chan(forever the lovable geog old guy :D)...forgot to take with Lam Wan when she found us at our table when we were at the canteen. It was a great time to be back at that campus. Felt a rush of nostalgia as Huimin and I went to the gallery of the hall to watch a part of the teachers' day performance. haha.. Well, I shall be singing with RVCS for the opening at the new school building next year! Can't wait for it.. =))
Then on last friday, it was AC's teachers' day celebration. The reason they had it so late was because they wanted to wait for us JC2s to end our prelims first... =D The performance was quite good. The emcees were really lame though...cannot tahan! haha.. but the band was good very lively and well, choir wasn't as fun as ours last year but well, they did a good job in singing the songs well! Had a surprise celebration for ms Azlina. she prob thought we were just giving her a teachers' day celeb but NO! we're also giving her a belated birthday celeb! and i'm so proud of 2SC6 for working together to finish all the pages for the months for the calendar we made for her! Eunice, Yiming, Jenni and I met on thurs, the day before to do the sheets for the months and the cover and our own designated pages.. took the whole day but it was fun and worth it! haha..
Sat was alumni welcome tea which brought the J2s together once again.. well, I would prob join alumni for just certain events i guess but not for AEWF next year because I really want to be able to enjoy listening to my juniors this time round. =) then on Sunday afternoon, I went to Mrs Tay's house after church. It was a J2 gathering at her place. She baked yummy pizzas and chicken wings as well as prepared nachos with specialty dips! Then there was a WII frenzy in the house as pple took turns to play WII. I didnt play though. haha.. Anyway, her house was really nicely furnished and I like the layout. Because of her projector and screen in the house, I suggested something to my sis for their new house and Terence said they'll likely use my suggestion! =))
Okay, I'll leave another post for something else I want to blog about. It'll be off topic to blog that in this post. haha..
some thoughts...
Sunday, August 16, 2009 11:33 PM
I can hardly find the drive to come to the blogger homepage, log in, and click on 'New Post' as I used to do a few years ago. Maybe it's something called growing up...?
Anyway, the reason I finally started 'penning' this post was that I have to eventually stop my procastinating and post some thoughts of mine regarding my RAGs journey as well as some recent happenings.
Well, I was sharing with Ps Sok Hwee during our last mentoring about the RAGs musical journey for myself. Indeed, it may not have been as 'intense' as some of those who were heavily involved in the acting and props. Yet, for me, there was a different sort of lesson that I learnt along the way, during inviting and also on the day itself.
I was really surprised that some friends of mine agreed to come unexpectedly. It really took me several years of opening invitations before some friends are able to come for a church event. Then another classmate of mine also agreed to come even if it means coming alone! Fortunately, another classmate came along with him. =) There may not be like big numbers of friends who came but still, I consider it all a breakthrough since it seemed so easy to invite this time round. This, I believe it was all God's work. What amazes me more is the work done in my friends' lives after the musical. From one, I was told she was glad to at least know God more and took home some lesson from Ps Guna's sermon that day. From that classmate of mine who readily agreed, there was even more amazing things! About 2 weeks later, I learnt that he accepted Christ! I really praise God for that for I knew He was using me as His instrument in paving the way for that classmate to meet God. Even the musical was part of God's big plan and purpose! Wow, I was completely astounded by learning all these.
Another lesson I learnt was to be ready to take risks. This resounds one of the church camp take-home. =D It was my FIRST time participating in a church musical, and I dedicated this FIRST time to being a STAGE MANAGER. Never have I done something like that and it is a really important job for I had to be the connector between the stage as well as Deeben, the director. Smoothness in transitions depends on our communication very much, so I was definitely stressed. Besides, I only actually came down on the thurs before the actual day to watch the rehearsal and familiarise with the scenes and the sets. And only one try with the walkie-talkie and everything on the sat rehearsal at the Main hall. I can only say it's God who helped me coordinate all things well. Prior to it, I've been praying and surrendering my abilities to God and just wanted to let Him take control and by His grace, He really came through. =D
Praise the Lord for His ever abounding grace and mercy!
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Remember in a recent post, I mentioned about needing some clarification? Well, God did speak to me during the worship retreat that I ended up going for since I thought it would help me to hear from God better without distractions and in a place with just one focus. During Pastor's sermon on serving in the worship ministry, he mentioned that our calling does not just mean a calling to serve. Instead, there's also the calling to BECOME, BELONG & then to SERVE. This really spoke to me. I've been struggling to come to a decision whether to stay in Chinese worship team where uncle Tommy recently asked if I could perhaps lead a team next yr, or head back to main service worship team & train as worship leader for main service. Now, instead of asking God where should I serve, where is my calling, I will ask Him,"What are you calling me to become as I serve in worship ministry?" From there, I believe I will get the answer of where to go...
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I finally came and finished this post. It was actually started sometime ago... haha.. Anyway, tmr's the start of Prelims. GOD BLESS whoever visits this blog and is a J2 from AC! I'm just surrendering it all in God's hands and just trying to finish up all the topics for the subjects as much as I can... Let God do the rest. =)
School falls in once more...
Wednesday, July 01, 2009 9:47 PM
Alright, so school has started. And i'm currently slowly trying to get into the school-time sleeping hours and switch my biological clock back to norm.
Guess what? on tuesday, i just got my 1st D.C.(detention class!) haha... people must be wondering, whatever did sarah do? well, due to my own insensibility on monday night, i went to sleep late(1amplus?) and i suppose my body was contented with my sumptous korean meal and also exhaust. Hence, i didnt hear my alarm ring AT ALL. Plus, my mum thought she saw light outside from inside her room and so she assumed i was up, eating breakfast. But she found me out only at 8.10am. Fortunately, school starts at 8.10am on tues and i'm not like few hours late for class. haha.. daddy was nice to fetch me to school and i reached at around 8.50am? yea.. it's quite awkward to walk into class late. sigh...so i obtained my 1st and last(it will be!) DC ever. It's not that bad tho.. mr Lau was nice and the environment was really good to study. haha.
Anyways, i'm starting proper, real revision. =) Prelims are coming soon, august 17!! and they're following the A'level schedule in sequencing the papers. Geog's first! it's got pros and cons to have that first. I'll leave that for you to figure.
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Right now, i'm fasting dinner together with the musical cast. And after reading today's devotional from the 40days devotional bk, I figured i got to fast my 'youtube watching' during that time too. yep. So i replaced it with studying other than the praying.
I trust God will come through this Sunday. =D
On another note, i need some clarifications from God now... shall blog about it another day...
All that gatherings, all that opportunities...
Wednesday, June 24, 2009 5:22 PM
There were a few rather eventful days over this week which I shall gladly blog about. =)
18June2009

My clique in class went to Yiming's house for an afternoon+evening of FUN! Our dear xinrui brought her wii to plug it at Yiming's house and we played Raving Rabbids, Wii Sports, Cooking MAMA!! =)) I finally tried playing wii and gosh, you won't imagine how some of the games can really make you feel super tired! In my opinion, wii is the best gaming device ever invented. It's not just finger exercise but you actually do use almost your entire body muscles to play the games since you wave your hands and blah. haha..
After that, we headed to the rooftop for some tennis and bball. LOL. and finally it was time to splash into the water for a swim or two!
At around 6, PeiHoon arrived and we soaked awhile at the jacuzzi area before bathing and returning to the hse for dinner prepared kindly by Yiming's grandfather! Then I hitched a ride from Xinrui's dad's car to Bishan as I was going to attend WeiJie's Grandfather's wake. yep.
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20June2009
Muse: A Night to Remember.

Well, before the concert, I met with xinrui, eunice, eunice's friend-naijie, mark and his friend-kenneth, for dinner. Then we went to get some small gift for peihoon while jeann was on the other end buying the flowers for peihoon, jim and melvin. yea.

Indeed it was a night to remember, with all the concert gimmicks thrown into the show this time. Anyways, it was a good job done! Great music and entertainment! I loved the pieces. Les Miserable was especially reminiscing of RVChorale's concert and Ghost train was just wow. haha.. I enjoyed this concert =DD Daddy picked me up from VCH after it ended. =)
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21June2009
XiaoJun's back in Singapore! Hence, instead of celebrating Father's day that night, 22 Cosinettes gathered at Shirui's house to have a welcome steamboat for xiaojun! haha.. my family's kinda celebrating it belated so yea.
After dinner, some of them went up to the roof but jinhwee and I didn't dare to. Maybe I would if it was in the day? Going up is not that scary, it's the thought of having to come down the very vertical ladder. Plus, the veranda wasn't very high up there. =S I ended playing a little bridge with ziyi, xiaopang and karhow. haha..
Finally, we decided to take a class photo before people had to go! And we presented xiaojun with a small gift as well, bought by the courtesy of Jolin Goh who couldnt make it. yep.

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22June2009

J2 sops & altos, most of us.

while performing, J2s & alumni
The J2s and alumni performed at the International Water Week at Singapore Suntec City! It was quite a grand affair as there were about 1500 guests from several countries and apparently, Prince William was supposed to be there but the person sitting at his place didnt seem to be him? haha...
After the performance, which actually marks the end of the closed door conference, we headed upstairs to the exhibition+reception after forming groups. Each group had different ethnic costumes and a mix of alumni and J2s. Some people did come and thanked us for a good performance, one even videoed us down while another called his son from Chicago to listen. HAHA. People also took some photos with us as we were all dressed in our ethnic costumes, which seem bedazzling? haha..
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Alrite, that's all. These few days, I'm just kinda staying at home to finish up whatever work's to be done and yea complete stuff basically.
Outing with RAYs
Saturday, June 13, 2009 7:39 PM
On thursday, a few of our families went to eat at the same restaurant for lunch after church camp ended. There were the Tan family with deebs and don who were in the car, Lee family and the Justins. We were in a convoy actually. Then soon after we settled down, another group of church pple reached but they went to the restaurant next door but shalyn joined us instead.
After the meal, there was the idea of going to Playmax and then go for a movie at night. Thus, one RAYs outing was formed there and then. However, when I reached home, I decided against playmax and thought of using the time to study more instead.
Anyway, I arranged to meet Shalyn to study together while the rest go to Playmax. We said to meet at 2pm at City Hall as I wanted to go to the Esplanade Library to study. BUT, she was late. oh wells, I saw JK waiting for the others who were going for Playmax so I waited with him. When the others all arrived, they went ahead first. When Shalyn finally arrived at about 2.25pm(?), we walked over to esplanade library. Due to our hesitancy, the empty seats we first saw were grabbed by some fellow acsians. SIGH. We decided to go to Gelares to study instead. She offered to treat me since she was late. haha.. so yea, I ordered the tea-time special and her, an ice-cream cake. I wanna go there again next time. =D haha..
Good thing she managed to do her chem and stuff. It's probably a good idea to study with her coz then she'll REALLY study. haha.. when the playmax people were done, we met again at the mrt station to head over to cine for our movie! When we were about to reach Cine, I met gay, fatin, samlam, joel, pyl and kristy! They were out together yep. Well, then we had dinner at BK first where the rest coming for the movie also arrived and had dinner there. Then we headed up for our show, The Taking of Pelman 123. It's not a bad show really. Quite an exciting one... haha..
After the show ended and we were heading towards the mrt to go home, at the traffic lights, Lydia just had to get struck by bird poo! LOL. We all couldn't help laughing and people were staring too like we're hysterics but I guess they saw what was on Lydia's shoulder too. It was really sick! Anyway, we helped to clean it up of course.. then we parted ways!
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choir today was just J2s with Alumni, rehearsing for the international water week performance. what took me was that the organisers or something came to so-called vet our performance today. We had to perform without score and there's this new chinese song which I only saw it today and didnt exactly learn it very much! haha.. amazing that I managed to smoke my way through the song, catching on to the rest who knows as much as possible. Good thing Mrs Wilson knows that gen and I don't really know the song too well and allowed us to go to the 2nd row today to save ourselves since we had to show the perf to the organisers. haha..
then i came back home. =) the end of the post.
Chasing after the Spirit takes COURAGE
7:16 PM
i'm back from church camp 2009! =) Actually, I was already back on thursday evening.
Anyway, this church camp had been enjoyable in a new way for me I suppose. It's a different kind of enjoyment for me. Well, the emphasis was that church camp is a journey that's not to be focused just on the camp itself. Instead, it's an ongoing process from before we go up the mountain, to the experience up there, then to how we going to retain the word and bring the experience back to our valleys once more. Indeed, indeed.
I learnt quite alot from church camp this year and I'm glad to be a buzz group leader as it allowed me have more chance to ponder and reflect on the sermon preached so as to facilitate the morning word better. I was quite stunned that I managed to actually understand why in the parable of talents, the servant who buried the talent was wicked, like how Pastor mentioned it. When I went through it prior the session, I had the idea he was selfish and therefore, he was described as wicked. Then at night, pastor said just that too! I'm glad that I was right as it gave me a great sense of encouragement that I'm not all inadequate or ill-confident as a leader to my cell.
In the camp, I went for the altar call to receive the empowerment of the Holy Spirit as I felt tremendous stress this season. A part of it was also feelings of inadequacy. I really needed God's spiritual gift in leading the cell, which is by the way, very transient right now... Some other important take-home lessons for me was really about having the courage to do what God wants me to do and to follow His leading, and the courage to spread Christ to my friends as well. Hence, I shall be more bold to direct my friends to this Jesus that I know as my personal savior. One way's to get this blog more known. haha.. I guess it'll be good to post links to my blogposts on facebook. =)
Another reason I enjoyed camp was that I felt that I was learning to be more relational this year. I felt more comfortable being with RAYs, not that I wasn't but there's a greater breakthrough with them this time round. I showed sides that some were perhaps surprised to see and discover. Trust God to work since I admitted that I was jealous of people who are able to be just so relational with people. haha..
Well, overall, this mountaintop experience shall not stay up at the peaks but I will make an effort to bring them down to my valleys. =D