feeling: struck.-----
finally. the mother's day celebration dinner is over. im so glad the singing tremor is over too. haha. being not even 14, and yet i have to sing an oldie with my mum n sis, earned me a couple of laughs. haha. nvm. i dont care. oldie only wad. so wad? is a meaningful song, as put by my mum. hmm..the food was average. i prefer the dimsums. haha. the portions were rather small. stingy? lol..
during pastor's short short message, i guess alot of mothers and also their children are touched. deep in my heart, i also felt the same. suddenly it struck me, i was actually kind of making things difficult for my mother. is it just because of our age? when we want to explore the world, we want to experience things ourselves, we want time for ourselves, that we neglect to think that our mother is not actually being nosey parkers, but they just care for us. they want us to be safe, they want to cradle us like they used to when we were all babies. little innocent babies who would smile when anybody does anything funny. who would cry when there's no milk, when we want to sleep. all the simple things, just makes a baby laugh, or cry. as pastor spoke, i dropped a few tears. my mum was crying too. really felt like giving her a great big hug and shout to her " Happy Mother's Day! I Love YOU mummy!!! forever!!" . but i didnt. i constrained myself. i didnt dare. instead, i just placed my hands over hers. and said a soft ' i love you' to her.
guess this night was really overwhelming. a night i will never forget?
p.s. i really love you mummy. i dont really mean i hate you when i sometimes say i do when i am screaming at myself after an arguement. tho u will never ever read this. but this is wad i would say to u...-----
sarahluikitleng`
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