alrite. i have been slacking a great deal after the horrifying prelims. apart from doing the
topical revision questions for chemistry, i have not started on any further revision. however, fret not..i have decided to start from today. after this entry, there will perhaps be no more entries unless something really
blog-worthy props up and i am unable to resist myself from it. heh.
like any average person, im going to rant bout some of the results that i've gotten back. im very unhappy with my
AMATHS,EMATHS and HCL results. i am angry that i missed the few marks to an A1 for amaths; upset that i did so lousy for paper 1 emaths such that even the high marks that i got for paper 2 wasnt sufficient to hit the A1; i simply lost out at the yingyongwen.urgh.
and as expected, i did poorly for SS. im thankful that my lit pulled me out from the pits. physics was way out of my expectations.. i had hoped to do well in this final exam but apparently, i just didnt have the mind to be able to comprehend
electomagnetism and induction. all i have is the
lil bit of logic to solve the
most loved logic gates questions.
chemistry is still fine. right now, i am just praying that i'll be able to do well in paper two section A1 in order to secure that A1. similarly for geog, i dont dare to hope for much, just wishing for an A2 because i really feel very insecure about my paper 2. eeks. well, as for english, i havent gotten back everything but im not ambitious anymore. a B3 will suffice, really. Bio was still not well done altho i dare say i scored quite well for the essay but perhaps, i just
dont have enough common sense to do the structured questions. simple questions and i couldnt even answer them logically. man, what was i thinking? did my fever burn my brain? lol.
anyway, despite still feeling rather apprehensive about the results that are not known to me yet, i am ready to just submit to God and accept whatever that He's allowed me to score. maybe He's just using this prelims to point out my weaknesses and prompting me to work even harder in those few areas that i didnt do quite well at. whatever results i get
before or after moderation, i shall just leave it to God to decide.
it's draining to keep thinking and worrying about it actually. i admit i was kind of disheartened when i saw some of the ugly results and just felt so lousy because i raised my own expectations to a level so high. besides this, i care too much about other's opinions and therefore, i wanted to continue living up to their expectations and perform well. so the results are kind of actually teaching me that i just have to perform to my best and not to others' best. i'll have to truly wholeheartedly, surrender every form of pressure and expectation to God. i must learn to not compete, not compete with others, not compete so as to feel secure.
Im secure as long as i place my trust in God. =)
sarahluikitleng`
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